とても痛い痛がりたい

何が痛い　何で痛い
どうしてこんなに痛がりたい

もー痛いとても痛い
どうしてこんなにとても痛い
あー痛いキミに伝えたい
キミにだけは伝えておきたい

もーつらいとてもつらい
どうしてこんなにとてもつらい
会たいキミに会いたい
胸のこの辺がとても痛い

きっかけは自分だったのです
傷を付けてしまったのです
放っておけば自然消滅でも
痛みがいちいち主張してくるよ

閉じていたら何も見えない
なったモノにしか分からない
そんなの理不尽極まり無いよ
誰かボクの苦しみを知ってよ

こーないでーこーないでー
そんなに刺激を与えないで
ドンマイですドンマイです
いちいちわめき散らさないで

ゴーアウェイゴーアウェイ　そう
私はそのうち消え去るよだから
平気なフリして耐えきって
よ

もー痛いとても痛い
どうしてこんなにとても痛い
あー痛いキミに伝えたい
キミにだけは伝えておきたい

もーつらいとてもつらい
どうしてこんなにとてもつらい
会たいキミに会いたい
胸のこの辺がとても痛い

またできたのです
原因特定できません
デカイヤツがのさばっています
痛みがビリビリズキズキビリビリ

黙っていれば知られない
ボク以外には分からない
だから叫ばない波風立てない
何も無いままのライフを送る

そうだね　そうだね
アナタが耐えれば済むことだからね
そうやって　そうやって
自分をごまかし続けて

フライアウェイフライアウェイ　もう
私の方からサインを送る
強がりばかりじゃ疲れるで
しょ

脳内で操作して痛みさえ快楽と化して
際限なんて無くて欲張りでコンプリートしたくて
ＢＵＴ
詰んで頓挫して猛反省
過ぎた時間巻き戻して
良いとこだけスロー再生
神回避ちゃってなんて
無理だよね

痛みにね　痛みにね　隠されてるのは何でしょね
無理ならね　無理ならね　ちゃんと助けを求めて
ね

そろそろね　そろそろね
私の役目も終わっちゃうからね
ようやくね　ようやくね
カイホウしてあげるからね

でもですね　でもですね
時々思い出して欲しいから
忘れた頃にまた顔出すからね
あんまり調子に乗らずに
ほんの少しだけでも気を付けていて
ね

もう無いどこにも無い
アイツはどこにも見当たらない
あの痛みはもうどこにも無い
もうつらいことは無い

もう無いどこにも無い
キミはどこにも見当たらない
痛みはどこにも無いはずのに
つらいことなんか無いはずのに

もうつらいなぜかつらい
どうしてこんなに何がつらい
待つ望んでいたことなのに
なんだか何かが物足りないよ

もー痛いとても痛い
今度は何がとても痛い
もう痛くないはずなのにまた
胸のこの辺がとても痛い

何が痛い　何で痛い
どうしてこんなに痛がりたい

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Totemo Itai Itagaritai

Nani ga itai nande itai
Doushite konna ni itagaritai

Mou itai totemo itai
Doushite konna ni totemo itai
Aa itai kimi ni tsutaetai
Kimi ni dake wa tsutaete okitai

Mou tsurai totemo tsurai
Doushite konna ni totemo tsurai
Aitai kimi ni aitai
Mune no kono hen ga totemo itai

Kikakke wa jibun datta no desu
Kizu o tsukete shimatta no desu
Houtte okeba shizen shoumetsu demo
Itami ga ichiichi shuchou shite kuru yo

Tojiteitara nanimo mienai
Natta mono ni shika wakaranai
Sonna no rifujin kiwamarinai yo
Dareka boku no kurushimi o shitte yo

Koonaide koonaide
Sonna ni shigeki o ataenaide
Donmai desu donmai desu
Ichiichi wameki chirasanaide

Goo auei goo auei sou
Watashi wa sono uchi kiesaru yo dakara
Heiki na furi shite taekitte
Yo

Mou itai totemo itai
Doushite konna ni totemo itai
Aa itai kimi ni tsutaetai
Kimi ni dake wa tsutaete okitai

Mou tsurai totemo tsurai
Doushite konna ni totemo tsurai
Aitai kimi ni aitai
Mune no kono hen ga totemo itai

Mata dekita no desu
Genin tokutei dekimasen
Dekai yatsu ga nosabatteimasu
Itami ga hirihiri zukizuki biribiri

Damatteireba shirarenai
Boku igai ni wa wakaranai
Dakara sakebanai namikaze tatenai
Nanimo nai mama no raifu o okuru

Sou da ne sou da ne
Anata ga taereba sumu koto dakara ne
Sou yatte sou yatte
Jibun o gomakashi tsudzukete

Furai auei furai auei mou
Watashi no hou kara sain o okuru
Tsoyogari bakari ja tsukareru de
Sho

Nounai de sousa shite itami sae kairaku to kashite
Saigen nante nakute yokubari de konpuriito shitakute
BUT
Tsunde tonza shite mouhansei
Sugita jikan makimodoshite
Ii toko dake suroo saisei
Kami kaihi chatte nante
Muri da yo ne

Itami ni ne itami ni ne kakusareteru no wa nan desho ne
Muri nara ne muri nara ne chanto tasuke o motomete
Ne

Sorosoro ne sorosoro ne
Watashi no yakume mo owacchau kara ne
Youyaku ne youyaku ne
Kaihou shite ageru kara ne

Demo desu ne demo desu ne
Tokidoki omoidashite hoshii kara
Wasureta koro ni mata kao dasu kara ne
Anmari choushi ni norazu ni
Hon no sukoshi dake demo ki o tsuketeite
Ne

Mou nai doko ni mo nai
Aitsu wa doko ni mo miataranai
Ano itami wa mou doko ni mo nai
Mou tsurai koto wa nai

Mou nai doko ni mo nai
Kimi wa doko ni mo miataranai
Itami wa doko ni mo nai hazu no ni
Tsurai koto nanka nai hazu no ni

Mou tsurai nazeka tsurai
Doushite konna ni nani ga tsurai
Machinozondeita koto nano ni
Nandaka nanika ga monotarinai yo

Mou itai totemo itai
Kondo wa nani ga totemo itai
Mou itakuani hazu nano ni mata
Mune no kono hen ga totemo itai

Nani ga itai nande itai
Doushite konna ni itagaritai

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Hurting for a Very Hurtful Pain

What's hurting me? Why does it hurt?
Why am I so hurting to hurt?

Oh, it hurts, the pain's so bad
Why does it hurt so bad as this?
Ah, I want to tell you how much it hurts,
I want you to be the only one to know

Oh, it's awful, so very awful
Why does it feel so bad as this?
I want you, it's you I want
The pain's right here in my chest...

Yes, I was the one who did it
Yes, I've wounded myself
It goes away naturally when I leave it be,
But this pain just keeps coming back

When I close my eyes, all I know
Are the things I can't see
It's unreasonable to the extreme
Someone must know my anguish...

Don't come near, don't come here
Don't let it get you so excited
Don't mind, don't pay it any mind
Just stop shouting your head off

Go away, go away, yes,
I'll be gone into thin air soon enough,
So feign normalcy, and put up with...
it.

Oh, it hurts, the pain's so bad
Why does it hurt so bad as this?
Ah, I want to tell you how much it hurts,
I want you to be the only one to know

Oh, it's awful, so very awful
Why does it feel so bad as this?
I want you, it's you I want
The pain's right here in my chest...

Well, it's happened again
I can't pin down the cause
I'm being hit with a big one now;
The pain's a aching, a throbbing, a buzzing...

If I keep quiet, no one will ever know
No one but me will have a clue
So I won't shout, I won't cause chaos,
And I'll keep leading an uneventful life...

Yes, that's right, you've got it,
Just put up with it, and it'll clear right up
Just do that, keep it up,
Keep fooling yourself with that

Fly away, fly away, well,
I'll send a sign from my side
Bluffing all the time is so tiring, isn't...
it?

With the brain, one can make even pain into pleasure;
Greedy from boundless possibility, they'll want to do it all;
BUT
Getting into a rut looking back,
Rewinding back through time,
Slow-motion replaying the good parts,
Trying to avoid God -
It can't be done.

Your pain, yes, your pain - what is it that it's hiding?
If it can't be done, if it can't, of course you'll seek help...
right?

Soon, yes, soon enough,
My duty too will be concluded
Because finally, at long last,
I'll be able to liberate you

But, hm, yes, let's see,
Since you'll want to remember at times,
I'll show myself again when you've forgotten
So don't get too full of yourself,
And take just the slightest bit of care...
okay?

It's gone, nowhere,
I can't find it anywhere at all
The pain is all gone now,
No more hardship anymore

You're gone, nowhere,
I can't find you anywhere at all
But the pain should be gone with you,
And the hardship should be gone...!

It still hurts, why does it hurt?
What could be paining me so terribly?
This is just what I was waiting for,
So what about it feels so unfulfilling?

Oh, it hurts, the pain's so bad
What hurts so much this time?
It shouldn't hurt anymore, but...
The awful pain's right here in my chest...

What's hurting me? Why does it hurt?
Why am I so hurting to hurt?

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