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Jita
Jitaba
Jitabata
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Re
Reo
Reoru
Last Battle
At the end of the journey, at last,
with all the strength I'd gained,
I went forth believing in myself,
my heart unwavering and strong
I erased the past I'd hoped to forget,
and in running, I moved ahead
I was afraid of losing;
I couldn't win against reality
Reality scares me -
everyone's eyes
Reality scares me -
eyes
watching me,
watching,
WATCHING,
I want to die,
there's no reason for me to live, none...
Ugly inferiority,
dirty jealousy, they...
stab,
stab into me...
It's the last battle,
and there's nowhere to run;
I'm cornered,
and my body trembles
I cried out,
like a child;
I cried, cried,
begging for help
And no one came,
they pretended not to hear,
and I was so
very, very hurt
I was done in
by self-loathing;
I had my ears
plugged all the while...
I was always all alone;
I would never look into people's eyes
Secluded in my shell,
I had no allies at all
I wanted to change myself,
but I trembled, too afraid to
I couldn't make a single step forth;
my tears tumbled down...
I wanted someone to laugh with,
I wanted someone to play with
Deep in the darkness,
all along I hoped to be saved
So then you came along,
and told me "Could you try a smile?"
And hypocrite that I was,
I stabbed at you, annoyed...
It's the last battle,
but I didn't know;
I was cheered on,
but I heard lies
In my heart,
twisted as it was,
Truly, I hoped
we could've talked more
I'm so sorry,
I could apologize forever,
but it's far too late
So that I wouldn't fall
to self-loathing,
I sang out:
lalula lulalila...
I've had enough,
I can't take it
I vowed,
I would live alone
Through sorrow,
through tears,
I wouldn't need
any rescuing
Suddenly I felt
a weight had been lifted;
my worries vanished
into thin air
There was no longer
a wall before me;
all alone, I was
at my last stage...
There wasn't a single happy day;
painful ones continued on
There were so many enemies around me,
and not a place to run
I looked back to see a giant me,
and it was laughing, looking into my eyes
I knew this was my ultimate enemy;
and terrified, I promptly ran away
I can't beat myself,
Mere dependence won't work,
won't,
never
can't,
No power to defeat it, none, none...
My ugly heart,
my despicable way of life, they...
My rotten nature,
dirty jealousy, they...
stab,
stab into me...
Okay!
It's the last battle,
and there's nowhere to run;
I'm cornered,
and my body trembles
I cried out,
like a child;
I cried, cried,
begging for help
And no one came,
they pretended not to hear,
and I was so
very, very hurt
I was done in
by self-loathing;
I had my ears
plugged all the while...
Last Battle